Here’s the conclusion I have come to at 6am this morning:
I cannot put myself first above anyone else. All it does is angers everyone. My feelings don’t matter. It’s funny how in these situations, I am the bad person for worrying about my own heart. Fine. I won’t take care of myself before everyone else ever again. If this is how it’s going to end up, then my feelings aren’t worth it, I’m not worth it.
